Since that time, I have learned ways to cope with these thoughts when I have them. Painful thoughts have power only when you struggle with them alone. By sharing them, you can begin to take away the guilt and shame that they are sometimes accompanied by. This takes away their power, and you begin to overcome them.
I realize now that we do not have to be ruled by these thoughts, or give them power. We are not required to hide in fear of judgement when struggling with suicidal thoughts. Help is always available , and while it may not always seem so, there are people all around who care about you, even some that may not know you yet.
I Am Still Here
By sharing your thoughts and speaking your fears, people will listen, and will help you take the power from those thoughts, using it to build a new path towards your own well-being. Each day, I fight a battle that nobody sees. There are moments that lead to flashbacks, smells, or places, and I must make a conscious effort each day to remember what is real, and what is now.
I am still here. I have learned that while the past is painful, it is behind me, and every step towards the future takes me further from it. I focus on deep breaths, and think about the happiest moments of my life in great detail. I think about how it smelled, what sounds I heard, and who I was with. I play the moment like a movie in my mind.
These moments can be as simple as remembering the way a summer breeze felt on a beautiful day, or as complex as a favorite memory with my daughters. I breathe with it and I allow myself to become lost in the warmth that the memory brings. It is a momentary aid that has brought me much comfort throughout my life. I used to think that recovery was a path that had to be paved quickly to avoid any bumps.
I now realize that placing the stones of patience, fortitude and self-worth one-by-one will sturdily pave the way. There are millions of us walking it with you, standing by your side.
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There is help, and there is hope. Like what you're reading? Go to our Sharing Your Story page, where you'll find resources for sharing your own story, including story ideas, blog submission guidelines, tips for sharing your story safely and creative exercises to help you get started, and assignments for upcoming topics. Write a blog post for AFSP! Open Preview See a Problem? Details if other :. Thanks for telling us about the problem. Return to Book Page. Why Am I Still Here? Anita Dowty. I look back at the night my husband went to Heaven and I found myself asking, "What now?
A part of the answer to my question, "What now? One person He led me to is a very dear friend who had been ill. After visiting with her, I started to leave and she commented that she didn't know why she was still here.
That's where I got the idea for my program which encouraged me to compile this book. Several people have shared their stories with us and their stories have become a part of this book. Many of these people have never told anyone of the personal things that they have had happen in their lives, until they shared their stories with us. There are testimonies as to why they feel they are still here, stories telling about how they see God at work in their lives, stories about divorce, murder, abuse, alcoholism, grief and suffering.
Then Jesus said, "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. There is a story in this book for everyone. Get A Copy. Paperback , pages. Published April 1st by Believers Press first published January 4th More Details Other Editions 1. Friend Reviews.
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